My journey.....part four

2003 the worst year ever...and it should have been the best...I was going to a writers conference in New York...which should have been totally and utterly inspiring...well it was...but it was also very daunting....
For the first seven months of the year before the conference I couldn't concentrate properly because I was so excited...finally getting the chance to go to New York a place I have wanted to visit in...well forever....and I was not to be disappointed...I'd go back tomorrow if I could...(well shouldn't that be inspiration in itself...to write so I can go back every year and meet with editors etc...well you'd think so wouldn't you :) )
And the last five months of the year where spent wondering how on earth I was going to ever break into that world with so many wonderful wonderful writers in it already and even more trying to do exactly the same as me...break in....and the doubts set in about how good my writing is or was or whether I was wasting my time etc etc etc....tossing story ideas around again...wondering what would be more suitable etc etc, spent more time thinking about writing than actually doing it......