An epiphany.....

yep a lightbulb moment!!!
My writing has been CRAP this year!! Non existent or deleted as soon as I've written it. Trashed and rewritten over and over until I've been at a standstill. Even a fabulous trip to Reno and a writer's conference which motivated me no end and made me want to achieve success in myself and my writing didn't help....and THEN....
that lightbulb moment!!!!
I wasn't happy with what I was writing...not my writing as such...but the direction I was going in with it. I was trying to take the "easy" road :) as if getting into any sort of publishing is easy :) but my heart wasn't quite in it....and I am so happy to finally admit that to myself....that I wasn't writing what I really enjoy reading so how the hell could I enjoy writing it!!!!
I'm starting again with a new purpose in mind, new goals to achieve and most of my characters will be able to make that journey with me, they'll just do it with a lot more depth and another dead body thrown in here and there :) .
It felt like a great weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and although my journey to the land of publishing may take a little longer than I had hoped, I think I'll be much happier with the results in the end!!!!