WHY BOTHER????

That is what I am asking myself at the moment.....I have wanted to write since I was old enough to hold a pen in my hand and I don't know what it is that is holding me back and stopping me from doing the one thing I have wanted to do all my life(there were three things...travel which I still want to do and have done a lot of to this date....have a family and they are the four most wonderful kids in the world....most of the time :) :) :) and write!!!!) Why is that so difficult? Am I afraid that I'm not going to be as good as I want to be and that it will mean I am a failure? That the only thing I think I am good at will be nothing but disaster and then why was I dreaming that impossible dream all my life?
AHHHHHHHHHHHH........
But that is going to change....I am going to achieve my goal of being published and seeing my name on a book on a bookshelf in a store and I don't care how long it takes me to reach that goal because I am going to reach it!!!!!!!!!!!!