Life getting in way...

I know I need to be more disciplined but life just keeps getting in the way....but I am writing every day (not as many pages as I would like because of LIFE but two pages is better than none in my book). It's a frustrating business, writing, you can see the picture so clearly in your head but when you come to putting it on paper you get muddled, confused downright scared that the damn thing doesn't look the same as it does in that strange place in your head. Or as you're writing other words come out and you go yes I like that and follow a completely different path to the one you were originally taking which shocks the life out of you and you have to start working out where to go now and what you still need from your original idea to make it work.....as I experienced today with A&C....really need to think of a working title for it but it just hasn't popped into my head yet....it will but hasn't got there yet!!! I had decided that A's DH had been murdered originally(in back story which will be layered through the story instead of taking the prologue option), but as the story progressed I decided that it was both her DH and her eldest child which creates more anguish, conflict etc and ties in with the current storyline. In order to do that I needed to make changes and as I was making changes I thought that maybe DH was still alive and they had just divorced because of the trauma of it all but then changed it back again because I decided I didn't want him in the picture complicating lives, him as a ghostly presence (figuratively not literally will also be more compelling....so spent way too much time going backwards and forwards over this but now that it is working think the plot will go so much better!!!!

Stinking hot today...

so not sure how much writing I am going to get done...as I think even the airconditioning is going to be struggling big time ....and being on here doesn't help either!!!!
I went through my research files today and tagged something which sparked off a story idea....love doing that but have so many of them not sure I will ever get them all done....but it's fun getting creative ...sparking an idea inspires me to write my current WIP....which I need to get back to!!!!!

Discipline...

is the key!!!
Gee took me long enough to work that out. I've made sure I sit down every day and do some writing...some days not as long as others (as the kids are still on holidays for another week but hopefully next week I will be able to get back into some sort of normal schedule)...and it is paying off....
I've been working on edits for my book characters I&C which I doubt will ever get published...it might...it's not bad but it's not great and I've reworked it a couple of times and it feels a little flat doing it again but making this my last attempt...I'd love to sell it don't get me wrong...because it was my first and I love the characters but I think of it as my learning couple....the one to make the worst mistakes on and hopefully with what I have learnt writing their story the next ones can only be better!!!!!
Have made a start on my major project....A&C....still thinking of a working title for it but nothing sticks yet....and am pleased with the progress I have made....so want to go full steam ahead on it and make sure that I finish it, edit and get queries sent out asap.....(hoping for first half of the year to get it done and out there!!!!)

Good start

to the year....I've felt so good about writing and I know this year is going to be so much better than the last few because I am committed to making a success out of whatever I do and for me success does not just mean selling (although of course that is the ultimate goal) my idea of success is to get books written and queries out (even if I get rejections on every one it still means that I have been working and that with persistence I'll get there instead of wallowing and wondering what if....because I don't want to play the what if game anymore....

My admiration goes out to.....

all those authors out there that combine busy social lives with families, sports and also hold down full or part-time jobs outside of the home.....I take my hat off to you because I don't know how you manage to get it all done....
or maybe I need to learn how you get it all done so I can apply it to my own daily schedule.
Any suggestions out there?

Gee.....

why didn't I do all last year what I've done in the last week....I might have got somewhere in my writing career....yes life has got in the way...kids on school holidays/renovations/general day to day chores but with everything going on I've still managed time to sit and write...maybe not in really long periods that I can dig deep and let everything happen on a page...but lots of creative spurts that have got me thinking...using parts of my brain that I had forgotten existed!!!
IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE WRITING AGAIN!!!!

It's been...

a great start to the year.
I feel like everything feels so much bette again to be writing...I know what has been missing the last few months without writing properly....me....the creative,imaginative me, the me who thinks outside the box, and I am so glad to have her back.

Off to a good start...

okay I know it is only a couple of days into the New Year...but I have accomplished something in those couple of days...I've been committed( instead of needing to be committed LOL) to writing...and no I haven't done a lot of actual pages but I've been plotting and researching and I'm raring to go....and hopefully the plotting and researching will make the actual writing process a lot easier.
I'm not a heavy plotter have a basic road path that I want to follow points A B and C but how I get from A-B-C might not go exactly as originally planned...it depends whether the characters let me tell their story that way...
I'm so glad I joined writer's groups and have met writing people who tell me the same thing that their characters talk to them and tell them which way they should be going because I doubted my sanity at some stage...and I think family and friends did the same LOL....
Got to go the voices are calling to me....heck no it's not my characters but my kids battling again...they love each other really....truly...I think LOL

My goals for 2006...

simply this....
to write.
Write consistently(and well :) ) and make sure that I get something done for an editor to see and then find an editor/agent who will want to see what I have done...
That's it...in a nutshell!!!
Yes I have more to expand upon as far as goals go but simply put...it is to write.

A new year....

a new attitude.
Gee that sounds vaguely familiar. Oh, that's right. I said that last year (and probably the year before that too.....)
So what is going to change about this year....what is going to make this year different...this year a success(whether reaching published stage or not....just getting books written and out for editors to read will constitute as a success....heck writing every day instead of slacking off will constitute as a success!!!!!)
The difference this year is simple....I need to write. I want to write. And finally I think I know what I have been doing wrong....gee it's only taken me....well too many years to work out that and it'll probably take me a whole lot of years to work out how to fix it and then I'll find something else that I need to fix...but hey I'm up for the challenge.
The second thing is simple....I can take the rejection....I think that has been my problem all along that I didn't want to be rejected(gee does anyone????) but I guess more simply put I've wanted to write since I knew about books...my mother reminds me often how I used to tell her that I was going to be a writer some day....but until now I've been simply scared...scared that when I finally committed myself to doing something that what would happen if I bombed at it...that the one thing I really wanted in my life (apart from family) I would be a failure at...and I didn't want to be a failure....so simply put...
TO HELL WITH REJECTIONS!!!!!!
There are going to be people everywhere that hate my writing.....but there are going to be a lot of people who love it too....it may take awhile to find the second lot of people...but if a job is worth doing it's worth doing right....and each rejection will be one step closer to reaching my goal!!!!!